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Sunday, May 21, 2006

stuck at home on a sat nite feelin emo..

no idea wat realli happened to cause the change of mood.. mayb is wat happened earlier on.. juz felt so down.. ad at diz veri moment, life felt so meaning less to mi..

perhaps is due to the change of mood, images of our past flooded my mind.. all the happy and sad time we spent together.. side by side, holdin onto the other.. am listenin to "i miss you like crazy" by moffats.. and i remembered the 1st time u told mi u miss mi was 3days after we 1st met.. u did not say it out to mi.. instead u made mi listen to the song.. frm tt veri moment, i know tt u're a sweet and romantic guy..

was at esplanade the other day.. and i remembered wat u say on 01/01/06 ur new yr resolution.. and how u celebrated my birthday for mi..

each little surprise u gave mi juz brightens up my day.. i would den smile to sleep the veri nite.. literally.. and each surprise i gave u, u would smile like a little boy who juz gotten his share of candy.. it juz felt so gd tt we were able to brighten each other's day.. i miss the times when we smile to each other out of no reason.. itz juz coz we felt so bliss to have one another..

everi nite u would company mi home from work.. u would wait till i finished bathin, helped mi dry my hair and cuddle mi to sleep den tk ur leave.. i neva had the chance to see u leavin mi.. onli till tt day..

the times wen we fight, i was the one who's alwaz at fault.. but u've the one who alwaz gave in.. i was soo stubborn, soo unreasonable.. but u gave in time after time.. i guess the last time was when u couldn't tk it animore.. i dun blame u for tt, i've onli got myself to blame.. i miss the time tt we would hug and cry after each fight, promising tt there's no 2nd time..

remember the veri 1st time u came over to help mi wit my room.. i was soo glad tt my bro and dad were so fond of u.. everiting in my room now reminds mi of u.. the way my room looks like now is all coz of u.. everiting single ting u got for mi.. they're at everi corner of my room.. the bolster ttz bigger than mi and the pinky pig, they company mi to slp everi nite since the day u left mi..

goin back to the veri 1st time we met, we were all secodary sch kids muggin for our Os.. u guyz were strugglin for math then.. and wen Os was over we had to collect out results.. u were soo afraid tt u would flung ur Os.. i was in fear too.. then we went for the htm interview together.. ppl saw thru tt we were an item.. then the poly postin.. it was the most disappointed ting of all.. but no matter wat, we went thru everi single ting together wit the company of the other.. i wonder wy did we overcome another one..

and the times we took care of one other wen we fell ill.. each time i fell sick, i felt so bad.. u would rush over to tk care of mi.. it was so sweet of u.. but i noe ur heart pain each time u see mi fallin sick.. on x'mas day itself.. i remembered mi rushin over to ur house early in the mornin at 10am to tk care of u coz of ur eyes.. i was soo scared then.. i dunno wat would happen to u nxt.. but luckily wit the company of mi the whole day, u recovered by nite time.. i seriously miss the time we would tk care of each other and worry abt this and that..

the 1st time i got drunk on holloween.. i couldn't even tk the lift up to my house.. and u rush over to carry mi up.. the times we went clubbin together.. how much u hated mi to smoke.. and u didn't like mi to club coz tt is the onli time i would smoke.. i miss the time we club together and dirty dance.. remember there was once i stayed over at ur house after clubbin.. ur dad told ur mum tt they're gonna be grandparents soon.. i miss the time goin out wit u and ur family.. they treated mi juz like their daugher-in-law.. haha.. and goin out wit ur cousin.. sittin at the back of the lorry.. where the wind will blow.. i juz simply miss those time..

i guess wateva i'm missing now, i can onli continue missing them.. for tingz will neva be the same.. nor would time turn back to the past.. u've moved on and gotten urself a new gf.. i can onli give u my fullest blessin.. though it mite not be truely from the bottom of my heart.. i juz wish tt u would cross my path once again..

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